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[Nov. 8th, 2005|05:40 pm] |
drinks
water
diet coke
food
stuffed grape leaves
athens fries
lamb gyro
a bit of a blueberry muffin
exercise
elliptical for 30 min at L3/3
I feel good about today. I didn't want to work out but I did anyway, and it was nice. My period started this morning so that pretty much acounts for the 140 on the scale. So...yay for that, even though that's a bummer.
Skinny skinny skinny. I have faith that I can do it. I just want to be back at 130, a nice even 130, not 134, not 136, but 130.
I was checking out my muscles today and I know that I need to start doing weight lifting again, because my arms feel soft and yuck and my tummy is soft and yuck and my whole body is soft and yuck. But I really don't like weight lifting, so I'm holding out on it. I really need to get Pilates into my schedule too, but that just hasn't happened either. |
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[Nov. 7th, 2005|08:02 pm] |
Okay, so I am back on track. Which is great, because tonight the scale said I weighed 140! And I'm only wearing denim capris! Not even full jeans! How did this happen??? It freaks me out how slowly this shit creeps up on you.
food
California Roll
Edamame
A Chicken Enchilada
Chips/Salsa
A Few French Fries
drink
one can diet coke
one grande nonfat sugarfree vanilla latte
exercise
30 min elliptical, L3/3
Seriously, one forty??? What. The. Fuck. A few days ago I was 137.....arrrrrgh.
I need to go grocery shopping and get back on my old food plan.
I brought my running shoes home with me from the gym because I want to start running in the mornings, even though that's just going to kill my knees even more. Oh well....who needs to have the ability to straddle? I really don't understand how, at the ancient age of 19, my knees can be as fucked as they are. Frustration.
So, I need decent food in my belly. It's been a while since I've run so I don't know how much I'll be able to do, I'm hoping to just get a quick two miles every morning and then a quickie elliptical workout M/W/F after school. I really hated the weight training workouts I was doing last time so I'm going to hold out on those and just do cardio for now.
I'm going to stop weighing myself every freakin' day. Just Sundays. And you know what? Every Sunday that I continue to weigh less....I get a cigarette, of my favorite, choice brand. I quit smoking like...two months ago, and I've been good. But I still want to smoke. And that will be my secret motivator. Pathetic, but maybe effective. |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2005|07:58 am] |
food action
*two mini reeses pieces bags
*two reeses fast breaks
*one inside out reeses cup
*two apple pull n peels
*one mini pack of zours
*two mini packs of something like zours
*two and a half slices of mushroom/sausage pizza
*lots of sweet tea
*a bit of coffee cake
Okay. So I got high yesterday. Arrrrgh. |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2005|08:57 pm] |
Okay, I'm ready to get back on track.
Halloween weekend was killer with lots of bite size candy, alchohol, and weed. These do not lead to weight loss.
So I'm at 138 right now (in jeans and a sweater) and I can't remember the last time I went to the gym. I'm thinking about going for morning runs rather than trying to do gym afteroons just so that I can be assured I got my excercise out of the way. Alas, my running shoes are at the gym, but it won't kill me to go running in sneakers tomorrow. I am ready to start NOW.
eating plan
1: STOP DRINKING USELESS LIQUID CALORIES. Diet soda or water. Plus alchohol. Because I live a rock n roll lifestyle and I like it.
2. NO MORE MARIJUANA MUNCHIES. Getting high is fine, getting munchies is not. This pretty much means I have to stop smoking with shaggy. He's the only person I ever really binge with so I need to stop stop stop that.
exercise plan
I want to start this slowly and ease back into my old fabulously excersised life. Starting with morning runs MWF and pilates TRSS. Figure it out from there.
behavior plan
Record EVERYTHING every day. Hold myself accountable gosh darnit.
goals
I'd like to be asking for size five jeans for Christmas, but I'm not going to think that big until we see how everything goes. |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2005|07:53 am] |
exercise
20 hard ass kicking min on the elliptical @ L3/3
I'm really annoyed because they're closing the cardio room on the time I like to go on Tuesdays and Thursdays...argh. I'm eating crap right now, and not paying too much attention to anything, but I keep telling myself ANYTHING is better than nothing, right? Doing SOMETHING will make a difference because it's more than doing nothing.
Argh argh argh. |
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[Oct. 1st, 2005|03:47 pm] |
I got really really sick. And then I fell in love (maybe?). Not exactly the things to inspire workouts. But I'm better, and the Boy and I have realized that we can't spend every waking moment together so...I'm back on track.
Also, I quit smoking!!! it fucking sucks. It's been difficult, and all my friends want to kill me, but five days later and I think the worst is over. Although I do like to carry around an unlit cigarette. Weird? I don't know.
Anyhow, yes. Exercise! I feel like such a fat ass, because everyone is making me feel like such a fat ass. I checked myself out in our full length mirror the other day before I went out and my dad said "Yep, looks like you need to start going to the gym again." Or my friend came to school in a teeny denim skirt, sneakers, tube socks, an argyle sweater, white oxford, the whole dealio - looking hot as fuck and I jokingly said that she wasn't allowed to see my Boy looking like that and she said "hey, you could look like this too if you went to the gym."
I AM NOT FAT. I'm just not. And I will never be a tiny girl, no matter how much I work out 'cause I've got hips like nobody's business. Arrrrgh. So I've been all kinds of confused and whatnot.
So, anyway. Onto the business.
exercise
eliptical, 30 min @ L3/3
My weight right now is 137 fully clothed, but I'm on my period so it'll probably be a few pounds below that in reality. (Getting sick got me down to 133, quitting smoking brought me back up to 136) |
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| Measuring Monday |
[Sep. 12th, 2005|06:25 pm] |
It's that time of the week again! new measurements are in bold
measurements
weight: 137/142
bust (after exhaling): 36.5/36.5
ribcage under breasts: 32/32
smallest part of my waist: 28/29
low hips (tape measure covers top 2 stars of tattoo): 37.25/37
largest part of my hips: 39.5/39.5
left thigh (weight on it, largest part): 24/24
left calf (weight on it, largest part): 14.5/14.75
I'm trying not to take the tape measures toooo seriously because you can't measure in the EXACT same place every time. It's an imperfect art. Le sigh. But then again, I try not to take the scale too seriously either. Five pounds though, is awesome, even though it was my TOM last week so I was heavier than normal. |
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[Sep. 12th, 2005|03:55 pm] |
exercise
Elliptical, 30 min @ L2
15 min @ L3
Today is my measuring day : ( once I get home. Or maybe it'll be a happy face, who knows. I feel like I can see a teeny bit of a difference...so...there's that maybe.
I think yesterday inspired me to do even better because it really wasn't worth it, in retrospect. Being with my girls was awesome, but I could have been there without eating, y'know? |
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[Sep. 11th, 2005|08:21 pm] |
exercise
none!
food
too much!
Today was a bad day in that department. But I spent the entire day with my girls laughing my ass off and realizing that every stupid boy is stupid. And they are not for me, nope. So, there's that. It's okay on all levels. |
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[Sep. 10th, 2005|05:05 pm] |
exercise
25 min on elliptical at level 2
(this machine kicks my ass WAY more than the bike so I'm trying to build up to JUST doing my cardio on this one)
20 min on RSB at level 5
Week One, Day 3 Self's Strength Training
In other news I've been completely FAMISHED all day. So far I've eaten:
.1/2 container strawberry yogurt
.1/4 cup honey bunches of oats
.1/2 apple
.Martha's Vineyard Salad
.handful of grapes
.2 string cheese
.handful of baby carrots
I'm going to take this as a good sign? Hopefully? Arrrrgh, I just don't know what to think anymore.
Today my dad talked to me about quitting smoking and I happened to read a really scary article about smoking in Newsweek so I'm allllmost tempted. But I love smoking. I am a smoker. I've been smoking on and off since I was 12 years old, continuously since I was 16. I live in a state where you can still smoke indoors!
Don't I owe it to all the smokers in New York and California to enjoy the luxury of smoking in air conditioning? I don't know. Something to think about. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2005|06:41 pm] |
exercise
45 min RSB @ level 5
15 min elliptical @ level 2
Next weekend I'm going to work out with my mom and get my body fat tested.
I went out to lunch and ate chips and salsa one and a half chicken enchiladas which is NOT on my diet but it's a super mexican restaurant. Bleck.
I'm super tired but I have to do my strength training today (I haven't missed a day of my schedule since I started and I don't want to because once you make one exception you start to make a million) and I want to do all my reading for next week before the week actually starts so I'm not so stressed out...what the fuck was I thinking taking 3 english classes, a 4 credit psych class, and an education class?? so....much....reading....if I do it before Monday then I can spend the week actually doing my assignments. Quizzes on Monday and Wednesday, test on Tuesday, Research Proposal due on Thursday. ARRRRGH. |
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[Sep. 8th, 2005|11:48 pm] |
So I finally just took my mom's debit card and walked to the store to go shopping (she's a teacher so school just started for her and she's having lots of issues with that, my dad works evenings, and my brother has my dad's car in the daytime). Relief! At last!
I bought:
.1 head of romaine lettuce
.1 cucumber
.2 chicken breasts
.grapes
.almonds
.red wine vinegrette dressing
.apples
(this is to make a "Martha's Vineyard Salad", which I tried at Arby's, it's about 400 calories for a meal-sized amount)
.6 yogurts
.honey bunches of oats
.apples
.calcium pills
(for breakfast, I had bloodwork done last year and I'm really low on calcium and I don't really drink milk or anything so I figured the yogurt and the pills will be a boost. Breakfast is cereal mixed in with the yogurt and a bit of an apple)
.1 lb baby carrots
.tuna
.string cheese
I did all the prep work for the Martha's Vineyard Salad, so throughout the week I just have to throw it all together. I think making my meals in advance will help me stay on my diet because I won't be able to make excuses for myself. I'm really excited to see how this effects my body.
I'm trying really hard to eat ENOUGH food and not worry so much about the calories, but focus on the nutrition. All the food I'm eating is really GOOD food.
exercise
going to do pilates before bed, the usual exercises. |
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[Sep. 7th, 2005|08:59 pm] |
exercise
Strength Workout 2
15 Pelvic Thrust
15 Three Way Row (5lb)
15 Backward Lunge And Curl (5 lb)
4 Superman
15 Skyscraper Step Ups (5 lb, supposed to do 30)
15 Resisted Reach (5 lb)
15 Skyscraper Step Ups (5 lb, supposed to do 30)
Pilates 1-5; 7-16; 18
Got my wallet back, should have gone to the gym for cardio, didn't : (
Didn't do so great on eating today either. I'm trying to avoid carbs, but I had a 6 inch sub on wheat bread and one and a half of Red Lobster's biscuits. I also had two bites of a strawberry muffin and about 1/4 cup of a virgin pina colada. Bad bad bad. |
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[Sep. 7th, 2005|12:04 pm] |
aggravation!
for reasons of the heart I was all pissed off and ready to do an extra cardio workout today and I have the perfect 1:15 break in my schedule and I did all my reading last night so I could USE IT and what happens? I lose my wallet. With my university ID. Which is required to go in the gym. No exceptions. Arrrrgh. |
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[Sep. 6th, 2005|07:36 pm] |
exercise
15 min elliptical machine @ L1 (wanted to try it out, DID NOT LIKE IT!)
30 min RS bike @ L3
28 minutes ballet barre; pilates (1-5, 7-16, 18); stretching
I did ballet because my muscles have felt terrible and tight. My body feels better than it has since I started working out, so, yay.
I worked out with a friend today and...well...seeing her size five ass walking for fifteen minutes is frustrating, lol. Gosh! There was also a suuuper overweight suuuuper old lady all naked in the showers, so, that was exciting. And then I broke my brand new 0g glass spirals. AWESOME!
I've also decided I need to stop weighing myself a million times a day. Mondays only, I don't need to torture myself any more than necessary. |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2005|03:56 pm] |
exercise
20 min walk to gym
RSB 40 minutes at L3 (tried to read a book, heart rate was below 162 for apprx 20 min)
Weekly Exercise Plan
Monday: day one strength training
Tuesday: day one cardio, pilates
Wednesday: day two strength training
Thursday: day two cardio, pilates
Friday: day three strength, day three cardio
Saturday: day four cardio, pilates
Sunday: extra cardio
Weekly Meal Plan
Breakfast Options
-yogurt with granola-y cereal and half apple
-granola-y cereal and banana
Lunch Options
-tuna
-chicken ceaser salad
-chicken ceaser salad w/ raisins and apples
Dinner Options
-whatever family is eating w/ low carbs
-grilled chicken w/ veggies
-Progresso soup
Snacks
-sliced cucumber
-baby carrots
-apples
-bananas
-string cheese
-celery and peanut butter
My biggest problem is snack machine food. I love soda, chips, cookies, anything in a shiny little bag. So I think if I prep snacks into little sandwhich bags when I want a snacky food I can just grab some cucumbers and carrots instead of a handfull of Oreos. The problem is GETTING the food. It's so frustrating to live with my parents again and be subjected to their food. I told my mom I need to go shopping with her but it hasn't happened yet, everything in the house is BAD and I know I should be eating more but I'm not going to eat empty calories. Also, I need to get hardcore about my calcium. My labwork showed I was wayyyy low in calcium and I know I haven't gotten better so even though I'm not a milk person or a breakfast person I'm going to try to incorporate it there. It has so many effing calories though. Gah.
My focus is just that whatever food I DO eat be good food. |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2005|03:53 pm] |
exercise
Walk to Gym: 20 min
Recumbent Stationary Bike: 40 minutes at Level 3
Day 1 Strength Training: 8 lb weights, 8 reps/set :(
Pilates 1-5; 7 |
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[Sep. 2nd, 2005|03:49 pm] |
Recumbent Stationary Bike
30 minutes at Level 4
At work I found a really great 4-week plan in Self Magazine, and I like being told what to do, so I'm doing that. The little chart starts on a Monday though, and I know, I could just start anyway but chalk that up to one thing I'm weird about. |
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[Sep. 1st, 2005|03:44 pm] |
Day One!
How embarrasing, my cultural diversity teacher said in class "you can see me in my office hours or after class in the cardio room." Dr. Lawrence is now the first person I know to have ever seen me in shorts.
When I bought the shorts I did not anticipate the long walk from the women's locker room to the cardio room, past the dude's locker room. Yuck. But confidence is one third of a hot body so...god thats so Dr. Phil. Speaking of which! He was on TV, and he was doing a show on fat women and their fat daughts and THAT was good inspiration.
I got on a recumbent stationary bike, because it was the first thing when you walk into a room and I have a fear of people realizing I don't belong and I have no idea what I'm doing. I picked the cardio progam but it asked what level I wanted and I don't know, How would I know that? So I went to do a Fit Test to find out but the Fit Test asked for a level too (why would I need to test if I already knew?)
So I went for level 6 (figuring I'm about average) for 20 minutes and then I died. Nothing like walking to the bus stop after a killer workout. |
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